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Wednesday, April 26, 2006
First things first...
To all faithful readers who have been following the irregular postings of my blog...Due to the overwhelming response, i will suspend anymore further information about my crush.. As if it will help much... no harm trying...
ok...
things haven been totally great for me as i think im losing myself day by day...
today, had some circuit training durin PE.. man i had PE.. but the class likes it, so i suffer in silence.. and i noe due to me slacking and and not exercising, and also gourging myself proportionally to my emotions, im losing my stamina, gaining my fats.. thus, im like now the weakest guy in class.. congratulation..
similarly, it reflects the same way into my studies... due to me used to being lazy and not doing work like last time right after school, im not doing anything to improve my studies, and it goes down down down down into the drain...
i noe throughout this period of time there is impulses and suddenly "BOOM!" lets get hard working and then it juz fade away with time. and everytime i give in, i tend to give in more the next time and the next... the lazy monster juz get so strong that it aint easy to defeat..
k enough of me demoralising myself...
Its a pity, that sometimes u done so much and someone juz dun put u in the eye, further more, u're in love with her... WAIT! HOLD THAT THOUGHT! no, it aint talking bout my crush..
I was reading Spiderman Blues lately, tells us how peter parker got in love with mary jane initially and how the relationship started... like all guys he have 4 failed attempts of 4 different girls before she found the right one, unlike sted opps... well there's a point of time he like this girl called gwen, then he like did all things to impress her, gave roses, spent time and stuff... yet she didnt even notice him! how unfair can it be man.. real unfair.. it strike me a little, reminded me of certain matters... sigh.. rather sad being a guy, i hope im a girl... have the right to control...
im suddenly so tired lately, need to find my old self back quick..
u have to be strong, be nice, be gentle , be hopeful, be thankful, be thoughful, be loving, be understanding, be strict, be lenient, be caring, becareful if u wanna help Rude. Its not easy being u, but be tolerant.
To all faithful readers who have been following the irregular postings of my blog...Due to the overwhelming response, i will suspend anymore further information about my crush.. As if it will help much... no harm trying...
ok...
things haven been totally great for me as i think im losing myself day by day...
today, had some circuit training durin PE.. man i had PE.. but the class likes it, so i suffer in silence.. and i noe due to me slacking and and not exercising, and also gourging myself proportionally to my emotions, im losing my stamina, gaining my fats.. thus, im like now the weakest guy in class.. congratulation..
similarly, it reflects the same way into my studies... due to me used to being lazy and not doing work like last time right after school, im not doing anything to improve my studies, and it goes down down down down into the drain...
i noe throughout this period of time there is impulses and suddenly "BOOM!" lets get hard working and then it juz fade away with time. and everytime i give in, i tend to give in more the next time and the next... the lazy monster juz get so strong that it aint easy to defeat..
k enough of me demoralising myself...
Its a pity, that sometimes u done so much and someone juz dun put u in the eye, further more, u're in love with her... WAIT! HOLD THAT THOUGHT! no, it aint talking bout my crush..
I was reading Spiderman Blues lately, tells us how peter parker got in love with mary jane initially and how the relationship started... like all guys he have 4 failed attempts of 4 different girls before she found the right one, unlike sted opps... well there's a point of time he like this girl called gwen, then he like did all things to impress her, gave roses, spent time and stuff... yet she didnt even notice him! how unfair can it be man.. real unfair.. it strike me a little, reminded me of certain matters... sigh.. rather sad being a guy, i hope im a girl... have the right to control...
im suddenly so tired lately, need to find my old self back quick..
u have to be strong, be nice, be gentle , be hopeful, be thankful, be thoughful, be loving, be understanding, be strict, be lenient, be caring, becareful if u wanna help Rude. Its not easy being u, but be tolerant.
Stupid at 2:04 PM
Friday, April 21, 2006
today, after a few hours of wasting some time with my class mate pals... i went to jp to meet aaron as i gonna talk to him, ask him how i should organise my life and be the guy i should be...
and then, i was scolded by him... just in case u are wondering, aaron is my sec sch good fren till now, same age, smaller than me by a few months, a great samaritian, a fantastic fren who stood by me through tough times, especially when i am alone... he is some how more than my fren liao.. he is like some one who i should sick enlightenment from....
and he scolded me.. saying that why did i lose myself at such times, not even paying any attention neither to my academics nor my fitness, needless to say, my crush.. and amazing thing is that i didnt even speak about crushes yet he is able to detect it...
he says that i should noe whats the prolem, but there is juzt somethings stoping me from doing what i should do.. and i told him is my discipline.. then he ask me why aint i doing it? something about if its time to stop, u stop! like a parent i say..
well, after a rather long talk.. he planned for me what am i suppose to do for the rest of the days...
in order to maintain my daily work, homework to be done on weekdays, to reduce the stress, a piece of work is to be split to several parts to do... weekends do all the catching up, like chemistry and stuff.. make use of every second well...
for fitness, when too tired in written work do some push up or something... furthermore.. every morining wake up an hour earlier to train up urself.. 2.4 run or 1.6 run plus pull ups and jumping exercises package...
seems like a foolproof plan to me... provided if i have the disicipline to finish it.. hmm... looks like its gotta be a busy days for me ahead..
then he told me his side of the prob and stuff..
i duno where i'll be today without him...
i did a very silly thing today also.. therefore.. seems like trouble well lie ahead...
things gotta change ... for better or for worst, its gotta change.....
and then, i was scolded by him... just in case u are wondering, aaron is my sec sch good fren till now, same age, smaller than me by a few months, a great samaritian, a fantastic fren who stood by me through tough times, especially when i am alone... he is some how more than my fren liao.. he is like some one who i should sick enlightenment from....
and he scolded me.. saying that why did i lose myself at such times, not even paying any attention neither to my academics nor my fitness, needless to say, my crush.. and amazing thing is that i didnt even speak about crushes yet he is able to detect it...
he says that i should noe whats the prolem, but there is juzt somethings stoping me from doing what i should do.. and i told him is my discipline.. then he ask me why aint i doing it? something about if its time to stop, u stop! like a parent i say..
well, after a rather long talk.. he planned for me what am i suppose to do for the rest of the days...
in order to maintain my daily work, homework to be done on weekdays, to reduce the stress, a piece of work is to be split to several parts to do... weekends do all the catching up, like chemistry and stuff.. make use of every second well...
for fitness, when too tired in written work do some push up or something... furthermore.. every morining wake up an hour earlier to train up urself.. 2.4 run or 1.6 run plus pull ups and jumping exercises package...
seems like a foolproof plan to me... provided if i have the disicipline to finish it.. hmm... looks like its gotta be a busy days for me ahead..
then he told me his side of the prob and stuff..
i duno where i'll be today without him...
i did a very silly thing today also.. therefore.. seems like trouble well lie ahead...
things gotta change ... for better or for worst, its gotta change.....
Stupid at 7:36 PM
Wednesday, April 19, 2006
i guess its time's up..
its time for me to pia for my work le.. and i think i've been asleep for wayyyyy too long.. its time for me to wake up...
there's much work to do...
nothin much happen this days...
oh ya.. i finally run at 11. 58 mins le... today.. achievement.. but muz still improve.. ck is chasing up liao... running is all in the mind...
now i got the da chang jin vcd.. finally can watch more le.. yayayay!
but there still got work to do first..
i'm trying to like go home straight after school so as to save time.. should try some way...
its time for me to pia for my work le.. and i think i've been asleep for wayyyyy too long.. its time for me to wake up...
there's much work to do...
nothin much happen this days...
oh ya.. i finally run at 11. 58 mins le... today.. achievement.. but muz still improve.. ck is chasing up liao... running is all in the mind...
now i got the da chang jin vcd.. finally can watch more le.. yayayay!
but there still got work to do first..
i'm trying to like go home straight after school so as to save time.. should try some way...
Stupid at 3:51 PM
Saturday, April 15, 2006
Juz like all things, im juz another loser as usual...
i duno, like what mrs ho said, ain't it sad that sometimes no matter how hard u tried, no matter how much hardwork u put in it, you juz couldn't excel... its juz the talent is not in-born in you...
and i feel that i am the person she coicidentally refer to..
no matter how hard i tried, time and time again i took up leadership roles and train my self to equip myself with the skills to lead, cause in my mind i have a clear view of how things should be done... but i juz duno how to execute it as a leader... and they told me that if i have gained enough experience, i should be able to be one...
but although i gained more than enough experience points, more than enough training.. i am still, a sotong leader, a blank mind follower...
similarly, juz like when im in archery... and it makes me get more pissed when i feel like i train every weekend, spend every single cent on equipment, and learnt much from coach, i lost to the F*** guy who trains once a month, spent more $ then time on training and give stupid : ' i'm so proud' look around cause i can shuffle a deck of cards different from u... cause i treat u well when i see u doesnt mean i like u... this means professionalism...
and i lost to him, again, and again, maybe because i can only work and the max i can reach is 100%.. while u with talent, there is always 101%.. thats why i can never win...
and juz like all things.. i nv win.. i nv get the best.. i nv had a niche skill... nv had anything... Nv been good in DOTA, not really good comparatively in studies,not really good at leading,not good at relationships, not even good at thinking... thats why im nothing...
coach kinda scolded me this morning... cause jaffar ask me put up target paper... george ask me not to... says ask them practice finish then shoot.. since jaffar told me first.. i follow his others.. done it liao then george told me... then i say when i put up liao.. he kinda scold me.. but he says he wants me to learn.. saying that i shld not take orders from anyone blindly.. i should think before execute.. maybe that's what i lack... but then again, im not good in thinking..
juz like air u see, i'm nothing
crushed feelings juz got so mixed that i thought its fruit punch...
i duno, like what mrs ho said, ain't it sad that sometimes no matter how hard u tried, no matter how much hardwork u put in it, you juz couldn't excel... its juz the talent is not in-born in you...
and i feel that i am the person she coicidentally refer to..
no matter how hard i tried, time and time again i took up leadership roles and train my self to equip myself with the skills to lead, cause in my mind i have a clear view of how things should be done... but i juz duno how to execute it as a leader... and they told me that if i have gained enough experience, i should be able to be one...
but although i gained more than enough experience points, more than enough training.. i am still, a sotong leader, a blank mind follower...
similarly, juz like when im in archery... and it makes me get more pissed when i feel like i train every weekend, spend every single cent on equipment, and learnt much from coach, i lost to the F*** guy who trains once a month, spent more $ then time on training and give stupid : ' i'm so proud' look around cause i can shuffle a deck of cards different from u... cause i treat u well when i see u doesnt mean i like u... this means professionalism...
and i lost to him, again, and again, maybe because i can only work and the max i can reach is 100%.. while u with talent, there is always 101%.. thats why i can never win...
and juz like all things.. i nv win.. i nv get the best.. i nv had a niche skill... nv had anything... Nv been good in DOTA, not really good comparatively in studies,not really good at leading,not good at relationships, not even good at thinking... thats why im nothing...
coach kinda scolded me this morning... cause jaffar ask me put up target paper... george ask me not to... says ask them practice finish then shoot.. since jaffar told me first.. i follow his others.. done it liao then george told me... then i say when i put up liao.. he kinda scold me.. but he says he wants me to learn.. saying that i shld not take orders from anyone blindly.. i should think before execute.. maybe that's what i lack... but then again, im not good in thinking..
juz like air u see, i'm nothing
crushed feelings juz got so mixed that i thought its fruit punch...
Stupid at 8:16 PM
Friday, April 14, 2006
today i went down to range to help out in in tomorrow's archery competiton.. together with the rest of the chiku kang there for the sake of CIP..
and the heck i tell u.. i got alot of mixed feelings today...
i am rather pissed in the morining as i feel rather groggy after last night's high fever.. but i think i feel better now.. then Jaffar was late.. and then the whole gang came early and some what blame me for making us wait in the bus stop... and with sted reluctance to be there, and also yp complanin to sleep more.. i knew its gonna be a long day...
finally he came and we got to work.. do some stuff... initially in the morning it was ok one.. then yp started complanin tired.. then before even reach lunch, they were complanin about whether they can go home... it piss me off la.. i meant i'm there, sick, pulling tables, and not even claiming any cip and yet what are they doing? playing cards with contessa and carissa.. and they nv do as many things as me, yet they complain and complain...
its extremely nice of george to treat us $50 worth of lunch for us.. i meant which type of CIP will treat u that? and yet... CAN I GO HOME YET? I VERY TIRED... CAN WE HAVE 50 HOURS OF CIP? hey, u knew that there wrote 30 hours and u shld noe that 30 hours means got lotsa work to do la..
i dunno what the hell they thinking... maybe they juz dun like this cip or something like that.. fine! next time at most ask them dun do such cip la... then jaffar put me responsible for their actions... and i noe that although jaffar nv say directly, he saying that why his my frens lazying around and collecting hours... and i HATE being in charge.. at one side, u muz follow orders, and at the other side, u muz compliment ur frens... tell me how can u shout at ur frens and get them working?
on the way home, i was waiting at the bus stop with sted as everyone has gone off... he was telling me that the mother scold him.. saying how come his sister got no cip yet he everytime he got cip one... then he say that the mother sure not happy when he reach home.. later he msg me that once he reach home, the mother screamed at him.. now he dunno what to do... then i ask him not to come tomorrow, but he say he will feel like pang sei ask.. but i think that is better than causing him to be in hot soup... guess i have to substitute for him when it is not my turn... at least i buy sted side of the story.. he has a valid reason and i understand...
for the rest, i duno...
and the heck i tell u.. i got alot of mixed feelings today...
i am rather pissed in the morining as i feel rather groggy after last night's high fever.. but i think i feel better now.. then Jaffar was late.. and then the whole gang came early and some what blame me for making us wait in the bus stop... and with sted reluctance to be there, and also yp complanin to sleep more.. i knew its gonna be a long day...
finally he came and we got to work.. do some stuff... initially in the morning it was ok one.. then yp started complanin tired.. then before even reach lunch, they were complanin about whether they can go home... it piss me off la.. i meant i'm there, sick, pulling tables, and not even claiming any cip and yet what are they doing? playing cards with contessa and carissa.. and they nv do as many things as me, yet they complain and complain...
its extremely nice of george to treat us $50 worth of lunch for us.. i meant which type of CIP will treat u that? and yet... CAN I GO HOME YET? I VERY TIRED... CAN WE HAVE 50 HOURS OF CIP? hey, u knew that there wrote 30 hours and u shld noe that 30 hours means got lotsa work to do la..
i dunno what the hell they thinking... maybe they juz dun like this cip or something like that.. fine! next time at most ask them dun do such cip la... then jaffar put me responsible for their actions... and i noe that although jaffar nv say directly, he saying that why his my frens lazying around and collecting hours... and i HATE being in charge.. at one side, u muz follow orders, and at the other side, u muz compliment ur frens... tell me how can u shout at ur frens and get them working?
on the way home, i was waiting at the bus stop with sted as everyone has gone off... he was telling me that the mother scold him.. saying how come his sister got no cip yet he everytime he got cip one... then he say that the mother sure not happy when he reach home.. later he msg me that once he reach home, the mother screamed at him.. now he dunno what to do... then i ask him not to come tomorrow, but he say he will feel like pang sei ask.. but i think that is better than causing him to be in hot soup... guess i have to substitute for him when it is not my turn... at least i buy sted side of the story.. he has a valid reason and i understand...
for the rest, i duno...
Stupid at 5:20 PM
Monday, April 10, 2006
for a moment there, i thought all of it was over...
and then it came back, my old friend who accompanied me throghout my sec sch life, the only fran i have which make others shooed away from me, and give me what i wanted when im in such a huge crowd... giving me what i wanted, being alone..
let me introduced my fren, hatred...
welcome back pal, welcome back...
maybe im so excited about his arrival and sudden encounter with me, some how, i though a walk with my grand ma would help me relieve my excitement, somehow, when my grandma demanded outrageous issues, i lost my mind and shouted at her at the public... there i am, what a filial grand child... dun u juz u wished u had one too?
somehow, i always wanted this world to be a better place and always reach out to help where ever i can... unlike hiding behind some turle shell when there's trouble and comes out to show off when everything's over... but little did i noe that i actually get invovled into matters sometimes... perhaps being a turtle is not tat bad after all.. long lifespan..
tried the deep sighing method i tot mc the other day, then forget everything aftertat... now i noe why she still feels down liao.. cause now its like no use one.. hahah... nv noe how it taste like until u taste it..
well, with an heavy heart, i type this words out, but part of me that i'm still glad cause at least mc is not in trouble liao.. 2 is better than one rite? haha..
for the not so many frens who noe me for life ah, if u were reading this then u might have ask am i undersome sort of curse or smth, why always kana this type of thing one... frankly speaking, i also duno... maybe its juz my life to be fated like this ba.. if i dun learn now, next time in the society when im having jobs then i would be worst...
k la, thats all for it... whether hatred buddy stays with me, life still goes on, sometimes i get offended, sometimes i get offended by... its juz me ...
ps: i'll swear i'll never play any ball games again unless circumstances calls for it..
and then it came back, my old friend who accompanied me throghout my sec sch life, the only fran i have which make others shooed away from me, and give me what i wanted when im in such a huge crowd... giving me what i wanted, being alone..
let me introduced my fren, hatred...
welcome back pal, welcome back...
maybe im so excited about his arrival and sudden encounter with me, some how, i though a walk with my grand ma would help me relieve my excitement, somehow, when my grandma demanded outrageous issues, i lost my mind and shouted at her at the public... there i am, what a filial grand child... dun u juz u wished u had one too?
somehow, i always wanted this world to be a better place and always reach out to help where ever i can... unlike hiding behind some turle shell when there's trouble and comes out to show off when everything's over... but little did i noe that i actually get invovled into matters sometimes... perhaps being a turtle is not tat bad after all.. long lifespan..
tried the deep sighing method i tot mc the other day, then forget everything aftertat... now i noe why she still feels down liao.. cause now its like no use one.. hahah... nv noe how it taste like until u taste it..
well, with an heavy heart, i type this words out, but part of me that i'm still glad cause at least mc is not in trouble liao.. 2 is better than one rite? haha..
for the not so many frens who noe me for life ah, if u were reading this then u might have ask am i undersome sort of curse or smth, why always kana this type of thing one... frankly speaking, i also duno... maybe its juz my life to be fated like this ba.. if i dun learn now, next time in the society when im having jobs then i would be worst...
k la, thats all for it... whether hatred buddy stays with me, life still goes on, sometimes i get offended, sometimes i get offended by... its juz me ...
ps: i'll swear i'll never play any ball games again unless circumstances calls for it..
Stupid at 4:15 PM
Friday, April 07, 2006
i finally noe how should solve the emotion i have feeling now.. thanx to the beloved ck which gave me such a present in his bday..
his present in wise words..
and poof!
it solved...
I'm not gonna let it fade away..
neither i will do anything...
i will juz wait...
wait after a levels..
if the crush is still on...
then i noe that its not a crush.. liao, its something more...
the idea of it is simple huh? why didnt i think of it? well maybe during desperate times calls for desperate measures.. when u in deep trouble, there juz some one there to save u..
today i nearly lost my temper at someone.. grrr.. so angry, so insensitive.. luckily manage to go home then throw everything around then feel better..
although mc says its ok to throw temper sometimes cause u let pple noe that u have a limit...
well, i juz think i juz dun like make someone else feels sader than i am.. hahaha..
wat a day.... gloomy morning, fiery early afternoon, fantastic evening, action packed nite.. hmm..
gotta trm liao..
his present in wise words..
and poof!
it solved...
I'm not gonna let it fade away..
neither i will do anything...
i will juz wait...
wait after a levels..
if the crush is still on...
then i noe that its not a crush.. liao, its something more...
the idea of it is simple huh? why didnt i think of it? well maybe during desperate times calls for desperate measures.. when u in deep trouble, there juz some one there to save u..
today i nearly lost my temper at someone.. grrr.. so angry, so insensitive.. luckily manage to go home then throw everything around then feel better..
although mc says its ok to throw temper sometimes cause u let pple noe that u have a limit...
well, i juz think i juz dun like make someone else feels sader than i am.. hahaha..
wat a day.... gloomy morning, fiery early afternoon, fantastic evening, action packed nite.. hmm..
gotta trm liao..
Stupid at 8:27 PM
Stupid at 8:15 PM
Tuesday, April 04, 2006
ive been so lazy...
not doing tutorials, not paying attention in class, sleeping, gourging myself and most importantly, i never seemed to rest enough...
i duno wats wrongeith me recently, apart from my unstable mind and emotions, i think that i am not motivated to do anything anymore..
however i'm motivated to eat... eat and eat and eat.. then seems like i am more in capable of big movements like sprinting and jumping liao, however there is always small ovements like typing or watching tv is capable...
so lazy, day by day i see LJ and josiah doing more pull ups hen me and then i just sit and watch.. hahah.. i no i shld train with them also but oh well.... lazy bones..
duno why i feel my heart aches so much recently, like everywhere i turn is something bout to hurt me emotionally, and this in turn, cause me to eat more.. grrr... i tell u i will be a bomb if this continues...
and partly is due to the crush... and i tell u that, i want it to be over cause it hurts, it always hurts, i hate it ever since... every little thing she do u take notice, and even who she pays attention to... im so torned apart by it.... muz focus and allow it to fade away... dun think anymore...
basically, i think im juz another guy who cries about and yet refuses to do anything about it... maybe i just must wait the day when i am damn motivated and then i will go lightspeed...
some one told me: dun let things fade away, if u let it fade away then everythings will fade away...
i really duno what i should do about it cause deep down inside i noe that she's right..
not doing tutorials, not paying attention in class, sleeping, gourging myself and most importantly, i never seemed to rest enough...
i duno wats wrongeith me recently, apart from my unstable mind and emotions, i think that i am not motivated to do anything anymore..
however i'm motivated to eat... eat and eat and eat.. then seems like i am more in capable of big movements like sprinting and jumping liao, however there is always small ovements like typing or watching tv is capable...
so lazy, day by day i see LJ and josiah doing more pull ups hen me and then i just sit and watch.. hahah.. i no i shld train with them also but oh well.... lazy bones..
duno why i feel my heart aches so much recently, like everywhere i turn is something bout to hurt me emotionally, and this in turn, cause me to eat more.. grrr... i tell u i will be a bomb if this continues...
and partly is due to the crush... and i tell u that, i want it to be over cause it hurts, it always hurts, i hate it ever since... every little thing she do u take notice, and even who she pays attention to... im so torned apart by it.... muz focus and allow it to fade away... dun think anymore...
basically, i think im juz another guy who cries about and yet refuses to do anything about it... maybe i just must wait the day when i am damn motivated and then i will go lightspeed...
some one told me: dun let things fade away, if u let it fade away then everythings will fade away...
i really duno what i should do about it cause deep down inside i noe that she's right..
Stupid at 7:52 PM
Monday, April 03, 2006
sometimes i feel that i am too reserved...
unlike what i am in sec, that loud mouth irritating CX.. i find myself in JC that i am too quiet... i speak to myself too much.. sometimes so much so that i have an headache..
i gotta open out a little i think.. but im afraid i will talk too much.. tough balance..
so i decided to speak my mind out liao... and the first thing to do is to trust some one.. right?
ok..
chin kuan's bday coming and we are so bz preparing for that thursday... and yet he is worried that he ahve to meet vp on wed... not to worry k? u will be juz fine.. turst me... like how i trusted u in eng... u can one. its juz u wan or not..
here i wish for ur birthday, that u 'll go up the stage with me,melissa chan,sted, yan pei and johnathan next year to collect our 3 As and 1 B for gp...
although sometimes u are a pain in the ass, damn troublesome, irritating, irksome but i am glad that u are with me, as my fren, my councillor, my time spending buddy, sometimes money spending buddy, my shopping fren, the class star.. and i am thankful that i noe u..
thanx for everything ck.. as we are here to support each other... always glad that u are here with me, with us... dun worry so much about ur results.. we can do it together one.. trust me we can..
happy early birthday...
Chin kuan's one of 6 buddies, CX
unlike what i am in sec, that loud mouth irritating CX.. i find myself in JC that i am too quiet... i speak to myself too much.. sometimes so much so that i have an headache..
i gotta open out a little i think.. but im afraid i will talk too much.. tough balance..
so i decided to speak my mind out liao... and the first thing to do is to trust some one.. right?
ok..
chin kuan's bday coming and we are so bz preparing for that thursday... and yet he is worried that he ahve to meet vp on wed... not to worry k? u will be juz fine.. turst me... like how i trusted u in eng... u can one. its juz u wan or not..
here i wish for ur birthday, that u 'll go up the stage with me,melissa chan,sted, yan pei and johnathan next year to collect our 3 As and 1 B for gp...
although sometimes u are a pain in the ass, damn troublesome, irritating, irksome but i am glad that u are with me, as my fren, my councillor, my time spending buddy, sometimes money spending buddy, my shopping fren, the class star.. and i am thankful that i noe u..
thanx for everything ck.. as we are here to support each other... always glad that u are here with me, with us... dun worry so much about ur results.. we can do it together one.. trust me we can..
happy early birthday...
Chin kuan's one of 6 buddies, CX
Stupid at 7:23 PM
Stupid at 7:23 PM
Saturday, April 01, 2006
today its gonna be a bz day...
now i'm waiting for my parents to fetch me to my archery club for my committee meeting... than after that several trainings and i'm done... gonna meet lots of pple there
wens going, sylvia is going, lots...
yesterday, 4 of us from the chi ku gang when to buy the leader's chin kuan present... me, sted, yp and jon, and i tell u frankly, that was the most boring shopping ever... yp keeps choosing the bag she wants, sted juz keeps sighing, jon keeps saying konnock and me juz follow them around, nothing to talk about... decided i shld hurry go home to spend my time more meaningfully by using the computer.... that mel chan la... got tat chinese b ting then have to pang sei us...
pirates of the carribean was a kool show.. mel chan lend it to me and i watch with my pops... maybe i wanna watch the second show...
still rushing to read finish labryinth of evil so i can start reading v for vendetta... kept thinking bout the movie eversince i watch it...
finally i slept enough today.. if not everweekend i have to wake up as normal school day.. today i slept then afternoon then go meeting..
got lots of work to do like maths and stuff.. better start my engine liao...
day by day, the crush juz getting stronger... i'm so afraid that its juz another evolution from the past...
I'm lost, as i dunno wat i should do... I couldnt ask for anyone's help cause i have to face this alone...
now i'm waiting for my parents to fetch me to my archery club for my committee meeting... than after that several trainings and i'm done... gonna meet lots of pple there
wens going, sylvia is going, lots...
yesterday, 4 of us from the chi ku gang when to buy the leader's chin kuan present... me, sted, yp and jon, and i tell u frankly, that was the most boring shopping ever... yp keeps choosing the bag she wants, sted juz keeps sighing, jon keeps saying konnock and me juz follow them around, nothing to talk about... decided i shld hurry go home to spend my time more meaningfully by using the computer.... that mel chan la... got tat chinese b ting then have to pang sei us...
pirates of the carribean was a kool show.. mel chan lend it to me and i watch with my pops... maybe i wanna watch the second show...
still rushing to read finish labryinth of evil so i can start reading v for vendetta... kept thinking bout the movie eversince i watch it...
finally i slept enough today.. if not everweekend i have to wake up as normal school day.. today i slept then afternoon then go meeting..
got lots of work to do like maths and stuff.. better start my engine liao...
day by day, the crush juz getting stronger... i'm so afraid that its juz another evolution from the past...
I'm lost, as i dunno wat i should do... I couldnt ask for anyone's help cause i have to face this alone...
Stupid at 9:40 AM