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Profile 21 Nanyang Technological University DOB: 051188 Trying to be a Godly Man Archives December 2005 January 2006 February 2006 March 2006 April 2006 May 2006 June 2006 July 2006 August 2006 September 2006 October 2006 November 2006 December 2006 January 2007 February 2007 March 2007 April 2007 May 2007 June 2007 July 2007 August 2007 September 2007 October 2007 November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 July 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 April 2010 August 2010 October 2010 November 2010 January 2011 February 2011 March 2011 April 2011 July 2011 February 2012 Links eugenie Zhao qi christine COGS bLOG!! 05S21 Daesiree charis Stupid&silly Timothy Sharmiela MArie Sook Leng Xiao En Tagboard |
Sunday, February 26, 2006 i was watching the hong kong serial witness to prosecution 1 &2.. if u remember??? Xi yuan Lu... ya.. i noe its beena long time since they film that show on channel 8, but i somehow manage to grab the cds and i like the plot can? ok.. so what happens is i watch till this part where song ci and meat ball girl going to fell in love... ya so what happen is song ci actually do like meat ball... but because of his past, his 2 wives being murdered, he dare not have another relationship... but deep down inside, he really like meatball.. and meat ball, really like song ci, despite rejected by him a few times, she secretly still like im alot... few incidences they got into near- confessions status ,but still pretend nothing happen.. i have to clarify something is that although meatball name is meatball, but the size is not k... she quite chio and cute one k... so what happen is that song ci decided to hang the love butterfly and a piece of jade that his ex wife gave him far far away and see if he will get it back.. to see if he and meat ball got fate to be together... and it did!!!! i not it might sounds a little far fetch to happen in real life here but i believe that if fate wans u two to be together u cant escape from it... so they fell in love.. as simple as that.. actually, this scene makes me think a lot also... no, its not wat u thinking now... its juz i find fate is a v funny thing.. if there is something as fate that controls ur life.. why do people still fight so hard to live? then like newton under an apple tree or aristotle on a piece of rock, i found the answer. fate is not destiny.... there is a difference... its not wat u thinking now lor.. fate means that things will eventually comes to this point if u do certain things... destiny means that it will reach a certain point no matter wat u do.... its very similar yet different.. the meaning is so profound that sometimes i dun even noe wat am i talking about but i think that fate have a major part to play in everone's love life.. so for those out there, juz do what u need to do and things will take its course..thats fate... Hmmm.. maybe i shld try to hang something far far away to see if it comes back to me... siao ah! it will get stolen lor... somethings may be absurd, but sometimes true... Stupid at 12:35 PM
Friday, February 24, 2006 Things are finally getting brighter this days today, i had a bad start in the morning, noeing i will sure fail cham like crazy cause i slept at 9 yeserday nite.... then when i got the chem paper i practically drew some words in the paper and handed it up... then i started wondering, when can i ever will have the mood to buck up and be like what i am in j1 like that.. score so well and understand everything... and thank god, or xie xie guang yin or amithba( dunno how to spell )... Comes in My Dennis Yeo with his motivational talk.... juz what i needed most... and he said something that i will remember for the quite some time... You may have muscle like springs and nerves like steel... But that doesn't matter... what matter most is your heart... and i suddenly asked myself, why? why did i find myself useless? i do have a heart... and tats wat kept me flying then... its unlike when chin kuan have his skills on crapping, sted have his skills on maths and atheletics... and i found something that i have forgotten, i have a heart... a heart to determine to strive on.. i think im starting to believe again... whats more, i found out like what yeo have said, skills can be obtained thru practise... and i realised that i haven been practising for quite some time liao... and the further lecture is very good as well, some lady comes in and tell us hpw we learn... i'm actually more kinesthtic, and visual, and a small part of audio... so basically, i can learn all forms.. hahaha.. but i shld practise more as i am more kinestheic.. suddenly everything brightens up again.. even my internet explorer when back online.. hahaha... oh well since heaven gave me a chance i shldnt spoil that chance rite? and i also found out that mel chan is actually half korean... and i didnt noe it till today.. god bless my mum for being so stress at work and my dad for bot making things hush... its a brighter day today... ARGGH! My eyes!!! where is my sunglasses??? Stupid at 2:19 PM
Tuesday, February 21, 2006 at this point of time, im tired.. im tired, and i dun care if trm is physics spa or fri is chem test... its the fact, im losing myself, tearing myself apart and the worst thing is... i duno why. i've been failing all my test, getting stuck at questions that i duno how to do and having difficulty breathing due to my declined fitness... i'm stumped... things arent the same as before... its not like last time where i juz learn a bit poof, have As in test and exams... its not like i noe what teacher is talking about even i slept in lectures and in class... and its not like when i went home i noe i can study anymore... its juz like me, trying to study but the body says sleep, like me trying to do some workout but body says play com, its like me trying to listen to lectures but body says play with CK... Its tearing me apart.. into two parts, and its v difficult to go thru all this, i need a break to catch up my work, then everythin will be fine, but there arent any breaks left... the only thing i can do is chiong all the way.. seeing stedson doing maths like chicken feet it scares me, alot, further more he has been catching up in chem and phy... facing the truth, his results have been better than me liao, but im in nowwhere... together with CK... man, why do i always get influenced by u? maybe i shld spend a littlemore time with myself to do what i gotta do first.. before catching up.. hard times..... sigh.... Stupid at 4:13 PM
Stupid at 4:13 PM
Friday, February 17, 2006 This entry is dedicated to banana tan yan pei and punani chan a.k.a melissa chan due to their comments saying that my blog is too profound and seems like some literature text that prevents pple from reading, now i smplify things like how mc type her blog k? basicallly, there is a war haapenin in the class, i also duuno how it happened, why it happened but it juz happened.. Class Divide into 2 gp: axis and allies, thanx to what sister Ho taught us in Gp.... and of course u noe who i refer is the axis or allies... as usual, i found myself in the frontline of the war lah, and being the cm, i think i am leading the war like that... hahaha, also duno wat happen, even innocent civilians, those who were not invovled was brought in it, sigh, JOIN ME!!!! ok, i also learn that next time i wanna change my name in the hp to other pple name, remember to change the email also ok, for those who lost ur water bottles outthere, maybe punani chan stole it, cause he stole steddy one.. and also, todae banana tan drew ck hair, then ck threw her lecture notes, remind me to keep my lecture notes if i ever to draw ck.. other than that, good job for mag hosting the cip thing, juz some irelevant beings who objects to the zoo cause scared the zookeeper close them up in a cage... thought ah meng escaped... my my, so many things to study, so little time, and i dun even feel like studying.... DIE... Stupid at 9:05 PM
Sunday, February 12, 2006 i sense the Force is with me.... because i just went to a place where The Force is Concentrated at... The Force is strong at... The Singapore Science Centre proudly presents: The Art Of Star Wars Exhibition One Epic Saga One Ehibition Of Calatic Proportions Singapore Science Centre Annex Hall, 19 Nov 05 - 3 Apr 06. ( Science Centre has paid me nothin to do with this) but for the force sake i tell u wat, their exhibition is, beyond ur dreams, above the cloud city in bespin, deep down the sink hole of Utapau, denser then the forests of kashyyk and even rougher than the seas of Kamino. their props, statues, replica, is unbelieveable. juz like they had just shipped vader from crouscant, yoda from dagobah and R2 from tatooine. its juz like the Star Wars Universe is just OUTHERE! unbelievable, i duno how to say, but u guys go see it, its true, i swear even non star wars fans also fall in love with its art.. The Force is Strong.. the Force of the limbs the Force of the Riser the Force of the string the Force tells me that its here... its finally here... My bow is here... i juz saw an tuned my bow this afternoon.. fine pice of art, besides the wierd shade of red and broght blue of the stand, otherwise, its perfect.. stretching the string for its tension now at the range.. i made a vow that i will get serious in archery.. and i gotta be.. how serious??? over 1000 worth dollars of seriousness.. The Force is Strong.. The Force of the excitement The Force of the paper The Force of a failure The Force of my friends The force of my results Not any results, but my o level english retaken results... Guess Wat>? i passed! ahahahah im now officially a true pionneer crossing every new frontier.. is the force strong or what? and guess wat? i haven did any work or studies since 2 weeks before... can u take the Strength of the Force? Stop Trying... Only a Jedi Could...... Stupid at 5:35 PM
Monday, February 06, 2006 i felt that although im in j2 now, im still v shag, not as intense as i was in j1... where i studied like hell for tests and such, but now, i juz do some flipping and went online... my standards had been droppng, and this resulted in further copying of work and such, keeping me in a cycle to deprove myself.. gotta break free of the cycle some how.. i juz received the news that the o level results are being released this friday... wat will happen to me.. i really duno, i'm too afraid to think about it if i fail, i leave the college, go poly most likely, and begin everythin all over again, with new frens, losing old ones, and also losing all the glamour i had in jc.. if i pass, i stay in jc, keeping my frens and memories, yet, with such my deproving standards, i doubt i can catch up so soon... it is an irony here, seems like i have faced my road block in life, yet of course i do hope to stay and be a pioneer, but each have its pros an cons, i duno wat will happen to me in the future, god, pls help me.. further more, im carring a debt recently, 645 dollars of debt, thanx to archery, i dun even noe why i agreed to pay the first place, but i hope it really will bring me to some place instead of juz being a past time... it will be such a waste as a hobby.. everyone seems so distant to me suddenly, like i dun noe them anymore, i guess time had made dreams into memories... its gonna be that time of the year again, juz 4 days after the release of results, and everytime i think of it, i had mixed feelings of sadness, fear and anger. and i'm sure that this year will be much more exciting with the extra flavour of the results.. if onli i could juz escape from the world momentarily like how u juz quit a game and start playing it later... may the Gods bless all of us... Wishing you a happy valentine... Stupid at 7:35 PM
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