whats happening to me? I do not know. Only have jl to cling on to now.

where are you God? where is my passion, my love, my certainty in you? Lost, gone.

commitments becomes curses

friends become adversaries

ambitions become nightmares

love become hate

Am I crazy to think such things and feel so down? U think i never try to pick myself up? I did! But weight i am carrying now its just too heavy to bear.

Evil men smiles, giggles, and have their way in things, they always seems to be on the top, and dun really care about those at the bottom. I struggle to be between good and evil, as being the top seems so tempting, so comfortable.

Storms of life, blasts after blasts, must i really submit my destiny to failure so that I can have a good rest? Thats the biggest question im struggling now.

Should Church commitments be a drag, should i really stop fighting, and accept that i am not as capable as evil men? God why? Why dont u bless pple like us, who are your people, and yet they are the smarter ones, they are the better ones.

Smiles gone. tempted to be my old old self again.. another fisherman

Stupid at 10:59 PM

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

lost abandoned helpless frustrated vindicated emotional stretched limited rah..

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