Why do we love?

before i start complaning..

here's a bit of thing that can make me happy..

my photo on some taiwan blog!!!

cause i bought their t shirt la...

check it out :http://blog.roodo.com/rainbowiscoming/archives/4470391.html

haha

ok.. i'm going to complain..

ITs never easy being a sergeant in BMT...
You get extras like get push ups like that...

book out is irregular, i stay so far away and life sucks..

even when u book out, hoping to see a nice home, there is no peace at home...

and the aching in my head, never dies offf..

even the aching in the heart..

it sucks..

i dont understand, how come pple can still be so optimistic,
and im sorrying till crazy, like im insane..

sigh.. 080207 seems so far away..

Stupid at 9:19 PM

Sunday, November 25, 2007

YAY.. I POPed.. Became a Sergeant, given more power.. and spider-man says : With Great power comes great reponsibilities..

And God Blessed me with these.. i have to make it right for Him

Haven really been knowing Him well.. didnt even put in the effort to even to talk to Him, Listen to His advice, His calling..

I need to quieten myself.. search for him once again.. since i have added responisbilities, i require more help from God...

I reluctantly made my sacrifices to make my life godly once again.. and its not just painful.. its scourging in the heart.. but it have to been done..

will update more soon...

found a blog:http://stupidspeakstosilly.blogspot.com/

Stupid at 7:07 PM

Sunday, November 18, 2007

You dont need pain to tell u that actually u are in trouble.. somehow, i can feel it..

at this point of time, although im like kinda blessed, i felt super duper terrible.. like living in a lifeless soul... yup.. thats me..

i look at the things i have yet i am not satisfied, why? because i couldnt gain any satisfaction.. i felt condemned, felt negelected..

i have so many things now, the love of my family, the wonder of my companion, the wealth that govt gives, the freedom to wander or buy anything, yet.. i felt dead..

i felt lifeless..

i have been neglecting God from my life, no quiet time, not even obeying his word..
going against every values that i was built for, built to become...

and i juz find it easy to ask for forgiveness, but hard to repent...

really really need a lot of prayer and help..

and behind the facade i put to let others see im fine in church,
deep inside guts are rotting...

yup..

i need to find him Jesus in this mist... sorry Lord, come back to my life, my relationship, be one in me so i could be like u again...

I gotta do something..

but what?

Stupid at 9:19 PM

Wednesday, November 14, 2007

hello...

back from taiwan..

didnt actually have time to blog bought taiwan.. but now nights out so make use of this few hours to give a summurised one

yup...

ok so the highlight in training was my navigation exercise, where we get to move in groups of 4 and then go to our checkpoint which is over 3 km away over mountains.. yup..

so what happened to me was that we climbed a 90 deg cliff up and then nearly fell , actually i neraly fell..

those near deaths inicdents..

really.. sure die one.. look down will die.. haha

its like 400 meters above ground yup..

so when i slipped and fell before catching on to another vine..

i thought of all the silly things i treasure in life..

my family, frens, church, etc

yup..

feels like God gave me a second chance to live again like that..

feel kinda blessed..

seems like only thru near death situations u learn to treasure life..

yup..

and after taiwan, come home, notice everyone sure miss me... relatonships grew stronger, family got closer, frens got treausred..yup

Stupid at 7:35 PM