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Thursday, March 29, 2007
discipline...
That is one thing that seems to give me everything i wanted. when doing the correct things at the correct time...
Discpline,
to train
to do quiet time
to eat
to sleep
to work
it basically puts everything back into order when it is out of order and maintain it that way,
making life, more simple, less struggling, and more enjoyable, with its tempting rewards.
I used to lead a rather disciplined life.
Actually, i would say it was my golden years if i am old...
Grades were up, friends were there, problems settled. body fit.
Something haunted me then till now was someone i met then, someone, who i refused to help ,and now, leading a life, where well, not a normal Good teenager life.
I would have been able to help. I would have been there..
It haunts me back, thinking that, im not strong enough, not disciplined enough to help those people.
im gainning my golden years back...
That is one thing that seems to give me everything i wanted. when doing the correct things at the correct time...
Discpline,
to train
to do quiet time
to eat
to sleep
to work
it basically puts everything back into order when it is out of order and maintain it that way,
making life, more simple, less struggling, and more enjoyable, with its tempting rewards.
I used to lead a rather disciplined life.
Actually, i would say it was my golden years if i am old...
Grades were up, friends were there, problems settled. body fit.
Something haunted me then till now was someone i met then, someone, who i refused to help ,and now, leading a life, where well, not a normal Good teenager life.
I would have been able to help. I would have been there..
It haunts me back, thinking that, im not strong enough, not disciplined enough to help those people.
im gainning my golden years back...
Stupid at 1:41 PM
Sunday, March 25, 2007
hello.. Long time no blog... glad to see that pple are reading this again...
i've come to a point where i find out that being a christian, is the hardest than being any other religion.
Unlike others, Christianity, not just a religion where u only have to go thru rituals of worship..
Not a religion where u can forsake your everyday life and focus on only the thing u believe in...
Neither we could do evangelism the Hard way... Forcing and stuff...
ANd worst of all, The world persecutes christians...
A very Godly woman once told me, do not blame the people who persecutes Christ, for they do not know what they are doing, just like what Jesus shouted to the Lord when he was crucified, 'Heavenly Father, forgive them, for they do not know what they are doing'
Forgive them..
how hard is to be a christian! and even harder to be a true follower of Jesus.
Therefore, We should not call ourselves christians lightly. Cause when u bear the name Christians, you are following Jesus.. And Truly, you really have to be like the apostles, leave your life of sin and follow him. do what he do, eat what He eats, sleeps where He sleeps.
I feel that i am unfit to call myself Christian... and even more unfit to be saved by Christ, to be forgiven by Him and to be his disciple.
But because He doesnt care who I am, or what I have done, He still loves me... And he does the same for you too... (yes even non-christians, persecuters and even sinners)
Its hard to be a christian, but i can proudly say to the world, I am one of them...
i've come to a point where i find out that being a christian, is the hardest than being any other religion.
Unlike others, Christianity, not just a religion where u only have to go thru rituals of worship..
Not a religion where u can forsake your everyday life and focus on only the thing u believe in...
Neither we could do evangelism the Hard way... Forcing and stuff...
ANd worst of all, The world persecutes christians...
A very Godly woman once told me, do not blame the people who persecutes Christ, for they do not know what they are doing, just like what Jesus shouted to the Lord when he was crucified, 'Heavenly Father, forgive them, for they do not know what they are doing'
Forgive them..
how hard is to be a christian! and even harder to be a true follower of Jesus.
Therefore, We should not call ourselves christians lightly. Cause when u bear the name Christians, you are following Jesus.. And Truly, you really have to be like the apostles, leave your life of sin and follow him. do what he do, eat what He eats, sleeps where He sleeps.
I feel that i am unfit to call myself Christian... and even more unfit to be saved by Christ, to be forgiven by Him and to be his disciple.
But because He doesnt care who I am, or what I have done, He still loves me... And he does the same for you too... (yes even non-christians, persecuters and even sinners)
Its hard to be a christian, but i can proudly say to the world, I am one of them...
Stupid at 8:43 PM
Thursday, March 15, 2007
It happend when im going to cycle to TTc and Going to cycle back home...
It started raining, heavily.. Very heavily.. And it was pouring... so scary...
I was armed with a cap, a bag, a plastic bag that wraps round my valuables, and a shirt to wrap round my bible, my journal, and my notebook for a special someone.
And i cycled home..
It was poring, slippery, and cold... I was praying that God could bring me home safely..
And then a Lighting flashes over my head.. i prayed : 'God, being me home safely, my purpose in life is not done yet... Help me... '
And after many flashes and many prayers, i was at home...
During me bathing, i reflected about my prayer... And found out that God was speaking to me through that Journey... He said: 'What's your purpose? why arent you showing me then?'
I have been procrastinating... Speaking one day i will do this and this, that and that, and then, i didnt... Why not let the one day be today?
And i found out another thing.. in order o complete my purpose in my life, i need someone to help me, stand by my side... Its not good for man to be alone... And yes, i guess the call is for Wens...
No matter how much i dislike eachother suaning and stuff, We somehow, no choice always, end up being together... maybe thats God purpose for us, to learn to live with each other, instead of competition, suaning, and despising, why not we compliment, encourage and support?
It always have been a great enigma for me tthat why i always end up doing stuff with him... truly i tell you, i disliked his company... But maybe its time for us to learn to do things together, to cover each other's short comings... to learn to trust each other and leran to be more like XUAN... When he is thirsty and lazy go to the well, i go fetch the water for him, when he is having trouble fighting the lazy monster, i fight with him, when we see each others' shortcomings, lets defeat each others monster.. and its hard, to always but up a strong front, and having some ego competieon, lets kill our ego and humble ourselves to the mud...
That is the purpose GOd is calling me to do, first, to grow godly with each other, next for a grand mission that He will later send us to...
I'm sorry Wens, for all the things i have done in the past... And i dont want to put up a strong front in front of u anymore, i dun want to act, i want to trust you, and if u are truly my brother, please help me to do so. Yes, there may be slips and falls, but could we pick each other up and grow Godly together? Cause i think i heard God's calling and he have a Great purpose for us, and we have to do it together.. And this is our preparation stage...
I'm willing to change, are you?
It started raining, heavily.. Very heavily.. And it was pouring... so scary...
I was armed with a cap, a bag, a plastic bag that wraps round my valuables, and a shirt to wrap round my bible, my journal, and my notebook for a special someone.
And i cycled home..
It was poring, slippery, and cold... I was praying that God could bring me home safely..
And then a Lighting flashes over my head.. i prayed : 'God, being me home safely, my purpose in life is not done yet... Help me... '
And after many flashes and many prayers, i was at home...
During me bathing, i reflected about my prayer... And found out that God was speaking to me through that Journey... He said: 'What's your purpose? why arent you showing me then?'
I have been procrastinating... Speaking one day i will do this and this, that and that, and then, i didnt... Why not let the one day be today?
And i found out another thing.. in order o complete my purpose in my life, i need someone to help me, stand by my side... Its not good for man to be alone... And yes, i guess the call is for Wens...
No matter how much i dislike eachother suaning and stuff, We somehow, no choice always, end up being together... maybe thats God purpose for us, to learn to live with each other, instead of competition, suaning, and despising, why not we compliment, encourage and support?
It always have been a great enigma for me tthat why i always end up doing stuff with him... truly i tell you, i disliked his company... But maybe its time for us to learn to do things together, to cover each other's short comings... to learn to trust each other and leran to be more like XUAN... When he is thirsty and lazy go to the well, i go fetch the water for him, when he is having trouble fighting the lazy monster, i fight with him, when we see each others' shortcomings, lets defeat each others monster.. and its hard, to always but up a strong front, and having some ego competieon, lets kill our ego and humble ourselves to the mud...
That is the purpose GOd is calling me to do, first, to grow godly with each other, next for a grand mission that He will later send us to...
I'm sorry Wens, for all the things i have done in the past... And i dont want to put up a strong front in front of u anymore, i dun want to act, i want to trust you, and if u are truly my brother, please help me to do so. Yes, there may be slips and falls, but could we pick each other up and grow Godly together? Cause i think i heard God's calling and he have a Great purpose for us, and we have to do it together.. And this is our preparation stage...
I'm willing to change, are you?
Stupid at 4:49 PM
Tuesday, March 13, 2007
It happened when we were in TTC helping out to stick some labels to some letters...
we were sticking and sticking, then i finished and told wensley, come i help you..
and then,
the competition thing suddenly sets into both of us to win each other, to see who does it faster wins..
a kind of Ego type of thing...
i thing thats what its all about...
maybe its time where i meet some one with my own character...
all those time, all the pple ard me are well, 'lost' in certain way, and now, i have to be the underdog.
'Live with it' He says.
i think we have to take time to change both our character to a better man...
Bring our ego down, and then humbly serve one another...
aint easy.. gotta try
we were sticking and sticking, then i finished and told wensley, come i help you..
and then,
the competition thing suddenly sets into both of us to win each other, to see who does it faster wins..
a kind of Ego type of thing...
i thing thats what its all about...
maybe its time where i meet some one with my own character...
all those time, all the pple ard me are well, 'lost' in certain way, and now, i have to be the underdog.
'Live with it' He says.
i think we have to take time to change both our character to a better man...
Bring our ego down, and then humbly serve one another...
aint easy.. gotta try
Stupid at 5:04 PM
Thursday, March 08, 2007
some things are worth waiting for...
Stupid at 7:25 PM
Hihi...
you now at times where u feel its useless to update your blog... an unexpected person pops up and then tell u that they have been reading it... that keeps the drive going isnt it?
ya... so i guess this entry i talk about my church attachment...
YAY!! i was attached to the COGS kindergarten.. v v v v fun!!! just keep playing with the kids one.. then they love to play with me... they think that i'm superman because of the superman bag i carry.. haha... v funny
this Kid called Malcolm drew me a picture and gave me an increibles sticker... v cute... although it anyhow scribble, it just melts your heart... they just love unconditionally... mush to learn from them... well, i think i giving this treasure the kid gave me to a special someone too...
ya another Kid Walywin, super duper cute sia.. V chubby and stuff i love squisshing him... And he dont eat meat.. wonder how hw become so big... VVVV funny face he have...
Well, the smart Kids are the Girls, Rachael and Sonia... Sonia have hair that never seems to get flatten, so she looks like she have bad hair day everyday, she laughs non stop once amused... haha... Rachael is a smart kid, she study primary one in k2... Kiasu.. ya.... but she love the rocket jumping thing... i carry her and let her fly.... hahha... vVVVVvvv fun..
such kids ah.. no matter who.. i automatically fall in love with them cause they do the same to me... and ya, its Agape.. unconditional... if anyone is in danger, i may even throw my life to save them.... cause its worthwhile...
just like how God sees us, and throws his Son's life away to save us....
I'm learning how to Agape too...
you now at times where u feel its useless to update your blog... an unexpected person pops up and then tell u that they have been reading it... that keeps the drive going isnt it?
ya... so i guess this entry i talk about my church attachment...
YAY!! i was attached to the COGS kindergarten.. v v v v fun!!! just keep playing with the kids one.. then they love to play with me... they think that i'm superman because of the superman bag i carry.. haha... v funny
this Kid called Malcolm drew me a picture and gave me an increibles sticker... v cute... although it anyhow scribble, it just melts your heart... they just love unconditionally... mush to learn from them... well, i think i giving this treasure the kid gave me to a special someone too...
ya another Kid Walywin, super duper cute sia.. V chubby and stuff i love squisshing him... And he dont eat meat.. wonder how hw become so big... VVVV funny face he have...
Well, the smart Kids are the Girls, Rachael and Sonia... Sonia have hair that never seems to get flatten, so she looks like she have bad hair day everyday, she laughs non stop once amused... haha... Rachael is a smart kid, she study primary one in k2... Kiasu.. ya.... but she love the rocket jumping thing... i carry her and let her fly.... hahha... vVVVVvvv fun..
such kids ah.. no matter who.. i automatically fall in love with them cause they do the same to me... and ya, its Agape.. unconditional... if anyone is in danger, i may even throw my life to save them.... cause its worthwhile...
just like how God sees us, and throws his Son's life away to save us....
I'm learning how to Agape too...
Stupid at 6:43 PM
Tuesday, March 06, 2007
hello...
just change that account of my to blogger beta, they say its much better, according to the webmaster...
anyway, i noe i say alot alot of times le... but i want to repeat... PRAYER WORKS!!!!
i prayed when i collect my results...
i prayed for you...
And it all worked... it all worked... praise the Lord.. it works...
anyway.. things have been good for me.. yupz... even though im at bad times, like family crisis and stuff.. put we can find God's peace (shalom) among them.. and thus.. using this view.. im happy...
well, im still a bit lost of what course i am going in uni... but i guess, i pray for direction lor...
After serve, my enthusiasm for God like fading.. i guess i have to find that first love for God also
yeah...
woots... its the follow up time...
mean while... enjoy this sm 3 new picture!!!
I love you too...
Stupid at 7:29 PM