Why do we love?

I think im now put to test now.. of how much ive trained throughout this year.. all bout my mental endurance, strength and whats furthermore, way of handling tings.. alot of prob juz boom out at one time when im not my prime.. gues i gotta sort all this out..

i wanna make a correction about the fantasy come true part.. fantasy come true when u believe and work for it, yes... but one of the dreams which will not come true is love.. no matter how u believe in it, hoping it to come true, and work towards it, it nv comes.. and sometimes the more u work, the worst it gets.. tats the sad part of life.. love is pain... an unvaluable part of life which humans, oblivious to is value, treasure with high stakes... i dun understand it too.. i chose not to...

the war is already going on out there.. pple are already taking sides.. no one is sure which is the right side they should choose or be chosen.. the line of the dark and light side is unclear.. initially i lay my honour to the republic.. but now i even have doubts whether the republic is the right pple i shld serve.. im so confused... but i trust the republic so much.. the kind acts it have done, the numbers it has save and all the things we did together as men and the republic. but now.. seperatist forces blured my loyalty.. initially thought that seperatist was clearly the dark side.. but now im really unsure.. stupid wars...

these times are really v hard for me to endure and live in.. hope camp hurry comes to let me get away from it.. if only i could save them all....