Why do we love?

at this point of time, im tired..

im tired, and i dun care if trm is physics spa or fri is chem test...

its the fact, im losing myself, tearing myself apart and the worst thing is...

i duno why.

i've been failing all my test, getting stuck at questions that i duno how to do and having difficulty breathing due to my declined fitness... i'm stumped... things arent the same as before...

its not like last time where i juz learn a bit poof, have As in test and exams... its not like i noe what teacher is talking about even i slept in lectures and in class... and its not like when i went home i noe i can study anymore...

its juz like me, trying to study but the body says sleep, like me trying to do some workout but body says play com, its like me trying to listen to lectures but body says play with CK... Its tearing me apart.. into two parts, and its v difficult to go thru all this, i need a break to catch up my work, then everythin will be fine, but there arent any breaks left... the only thing i can do is chiong all the way..

seeing stedson doing maths like chicken feet it scares me, alot, further more he has been catching up in chem and phy... facing the truth, his results have been better than me liao, but im in nowwhere... together with CK... man, why do i always get influenced by u?

maybe i shld spend a littlemore time with myself to do what i gotta do first.. before catching up..

hard times..... sigh....