Why do we love?

ive been so lazy...

not doing tutorials, not paying attention in class, sleeping, gourging myself and most importantly, i never seemed to rest enough...

i duno wats wrongeith me recently, apart from my unstable mind and emotions, i think that i am not motivated to do anything anymore..

however i'm motivated to eat... eat and eat and eat.. then seems like i am more in capable of big movements like sprinting and jumping liao, however there is always small ovements like typing or watching tv is capable...

so lazy, day by day i see LJ and josiah doing more pull ups hen me and then i just sit and watch.. hahah.. i no i shld train with them also but oh well.... lazy bones..

duno why i feel my heart aches so much recently, like everywhere i turn is something bout to hurt me emotionally, and this in turn, cause me to eat more.. grrr... i tell u i will be a bomb if this continues...

and partly is due to the crush... and i tell u that, i want it to be over cause it hurts, it always hurts, i hate it ever since... every little thing she do u take notice, and even who she pays attention to... im so torned apart by it.... muz focus and allow it to fade away... dun think anymore...

basically, i think im juz another guy who cries about and yet refuses to do anything about it... maybe i just must wait the day when i am damn motivated and then i will go lightspeed...

some one told me: dun let things fade away, if u let it fade away then everythings will fade away...

i really duno what i should do about it cause deep down inside i noe that she's right..