Why do we love?

First things first...

To all faithful readers who have been following the irregular postings of my blog...Due to the overwhelming response, i will suspend anymore further information about my crush.. As if it will help much... no harm trying...

ok...

things haven been totally great for me as i think im losing myself day by day...

today, had some circuit training durin PE.. man i had PE.. but the class likes it, so i suffer in silence.. and i noe due to me slacking and and not exercising, and also gourging myself proportionally to my emotions, im losing my stamina, gaining my fats.. thus, im like now the weakest guy in class.. congratulation..

similarly, it reflects the same way into my studies... due to me used to being lazy and not doing work like last time right after school, im not doing anything to improve my studies, and it goes down down down down into the drain...

i noe throughout this period of time there is impulses and suddenly "BOOM!" lets get hard working and then it juz fade away with time. and everytime i give in, i tend to give in more the next time and the next... the lazy monster juz get so strong that it aint easy to defeat..

k enough of me demoralising myself...

Its a pity, that sometimes u done so much and someone juz dun put u in the eye, further more, u're in love with her... WAIT! HOLD THAT THOUGHT! no, it aint talking bout my crush..
I was reading Spiderman Blues lately, tells us how peter parker got in love with mary jane initially and how the relationship started... like all guys he have 4 failed attempts of 4 different girls before she found the right one, unlike sted opps... well there's a point of time he like this girl called gwen, then he like did all things to impress her, gave roses, spent time and stuff... yet she didnt even notice him! how unfair can it be man.. real unfair.. it strike me a little, reminded me of certain matters... sigh.. rather sad being a guy, i hope im a girl... have the right to control...

im suddenly so tired lately, need to find my old self back quick..

u have to be strong, be nice, be gentle , be hopeful, be thankful, be thoughful, be loving, be understanding, be strict, be lenient, be caring, becareful if u wanna help Rude. Its not easy being u, but be tolerant.