Why do we love?

today i went down to range to help out in in tomorrow's archery competiton.. together with the rest of the chiku kang there for the sake of CIP..

and the heck i tell u.. i got alot of mixed feelings today...

i am rather pissed in the morining as i feel rather groggy after last night's high fever.. but i think i feel better now.. then Jaffar was late.. and then the whole gang came early and some what blame me for making us wait in the bus stop... and with sted reluctance to be there, and also yp complanin to sleep more.. i knew its gonna be a long day...

finally he came and we got to work.. do some stuff... initially in the morning it was ok one.. then yp started complanin tired.. then before even reach lunch, they were complanin about whether they can go home... it piss me off la.. i meant i'm there, sick, pulling tables, and not even claiming any cip and yet what are they doing? playing cards with contessa and carissa.. and they nv do as many things as me, yet they complain and complain...

its extremely nice of george to treat us $50 worth of lunch for us.. i meant which type of CIP will treat u that? and yet... CAN I GO HOME YET? I VERY TIRED... CAN WE HAVE 50 HOURS OF CIP? hey, u knew that there wrote 30 hours and u shld noe that 30 hours means got lotsa work to do la..

i dunno what the hell they thinking... maybe they juz dun like this cip or something like that.. fine! next time at most ask them dun do such cip la... then jaffar put me responsible for their actions... and i noe that although jaffar nv say directly, he saying that why his my frens lazying around and collecting hours... and i HATE being in charge.. at one side, u muz follow orders, and at the other side, u muz compliment ur frens... tell me how can u shout at ur frens and get them working?

on the way home, i was waiting at the bus stop with sted as everyone has gone off... he was telling me that the mother scold him.. saying how come his sister got no cip yet he everytime he got cip one... then he say that the mother sure not happy when he reach home.. later he msg me that once he reach home, the mother screamed at him.. now he dunno what to do... then i ask him not to come tomorrow, but he say he will feel like pang sei ask.. but i think that is better than causing him to be in hot soup... guess i have to substitute for him when it is not my turn... at least i buy sted side of the story.. he has a valid reason and i understand...

for the rest, i duno...