Why do we love?

i duno how to clear the mess that i've made...

guess i still owe everyone an apology...

i'm sorry guys... im juz being paranoid...

ok.. today i should be feeling a bit better, but i still can sense that there is gap between me and ck.. nv talk much.. hope it improves in the future...

wat mc said in her blog was right, i shld feel how i felt then... but when i got so agitated, i lose my real civilised self... sad...

luckily its all over, and yet its going to begin..

my plan...

i name it after a batman comic ive read... called No Man's land... rebuilding a city from its ruins...
juz like me rebuilding myself... both mentally and physically...

its a tight schedule i attached on the board.. but i think its not impossible, if only i have the will....

its begins trm with day one.. so today is

NML, Day 0: preparation...

im trying to get my last break for the month, went out to eat, walked and came back to rest... actually hoping to go orchard cause i wouldnt have time to go after that.. but oh well,...

i juz hope im prepared.. and hope i have the will..