Why do we love?

at the end of every tunnel is a burst of light.. i hope..

i decided not to close my blog down, my only source of way to vent my feelings.. and i dun care wat others gonna say cause its really my only way out...

felt very disappointed when i found out that few pple in my class is still rather pissed with me although i explained everything...

wats more disappointing is my dearest class reps refuse to do their duties to buy presents ... everything have to lie in the hands of their cm and gp rep and pe rep.... felt s disappointing....

fall sick liao... with all this bad things and sad things happening around me, wat should i do? even studying makes me feel sicker.. i was thinking wat happen if i didnt make it and i retain... or worst, cannot retain, must kick out... everything is possible...

everyone have a special someone in their hearts, and especially the one of them hurts me most...

i prayed.. but duno when he will answer my prayer...

too distracted, cant focus.. but thats my only shot.. its like2 bullets in the gun chamber u noe...

i wished on that very day i did appealed back... then i dun have to lend up in this state... regreted...

but then again, the end of the rainbow may not always be a pot of gold...

when will the bridge be rebuilded again... so i can interact.... but dun think so.. and the guilt will follow me forever...

sted having problems too on his end, and i dun even have ways to solve his when i have mine...

i will never be a guy big enough to be noticed

argggh... i hate to be me...

useless bum, un promising freak, stupid goal keeper, door mat, asshole, im just a dumb guy who studies like a nerd and dun score like the nerd.. end up... being a LOSER... thats wat i am..

i hate myself. no music talents, stupid hands stupid legs, i suck at ball games, i suck at having relationships with pple, i suck at everything.... and i dun even have the courage to suicide... i suck.....