Why do we love?

i startedreading this book, called wehn god writes your love story, but it actually compromise on how god writes your story of life, and basically, i have to surrender everything to him, that is the key, which seems to be the hardest thing to do in the universe to me...

'Follow me and you'll be set free' Jesus said... how can one follow some one else and yet be free? ironic, yet deep down inside we know its true.

i ashamed to say that i am unsure to recognise myself as chirstians, and like Jesus have said he will ashamed to speak of me in front of the heavenly father.. i need to work more on that...

been studying lately my habit which makes me feel comfortable, and not exercising.. gaining weight more... maybe later go run...

decided to join serve... yup, the two ultimate guardians of mine approved.. unbelievable...

still got much soul searching to do after what Aaron said yesterday.... darn why is that gf thing kept banging at my door? scram freaks! scram....

i am at a seriously confused state right now, 2 things that keep me sane is God and the $19.90 spongebob doll i saw at toys r us... *hint guys*