Why do we love?

sometimes u come to a point in life that u noe where u are directed to go, u noe wat u are supposed to do, u noe that God is calling u there.

but u hesitate, u just dun put the first step to go to that destination of the promised land.

and u noe that if u don't go there, u'll end up dying ( figuratively and literally)

but u still dun do it...

why? i asked...

i found the answers where i chose not to look...

Lazy, Temptations, Hope for another path, Fear,Despair and Low self esteem are some of them...

others, i may not have the courage to face them...

but i noe that i can defeat them, all it needs is a deep breath, a great deal of trust on God, and take the path that He planned for me. I'm waiting for the endurance and strength flow into me. Or maybe i should have picked them up by myself instead of waiting...

sometimes, i wish everyone is Christ like... nice little people u see everywhere around u, treating u nicely, showing u all those 5 C's that all human beings deserve, Considerate, Care, Consistency, Courteous, Courage. But most of us, are too worldly, and even so much that we are worldly subconciously, that we become, oblvious about it. It became so tempting to me that i shld try to persue worldly treasures rather then heavenly ones, just to be recognised by many. Cause sometimes u cry out to God saying that some earthly treasures he does not give it to u at all. but are u truly blessed without such worldly treasures? ur heart says yes, ur mind says no... thats why u tear youself apart at such circumstances...

how upsetting sometimes even our own people such things in such worldly ways...

sigh...