Why do we love?

It happend when im going to cycle to TTc and Going to cycle back home...

It started raining, heavily.. Very heavily.. And it was pouring... so scary...

I was armed with a cap, a bag, a plastic bag that wraps round my valuables, and a shirt to wrap round my bible, my journal, and my notebook for a special someone.

And i cycled home..

It was poring, slippery, and cold... I was praying that God could bring me home safely..

And then a Lighting flashes over my head.. i prayed : 'God, being me home safely, my purpose in life is not done yet... Help me... '

And after many flashes and many prayers, i was at home...

During me bathing, i reflected about my prayer... And found out that God was speaking to me through that Journey... He said: 'What's your purpose? why arent you showing me then?'

I have been procrastinating... Speaking one day i will do this and this, that and that, and then, i didnt... Why not let the one day be today?

And i found out another thing.. in order o complete my purpose in my life, i need someone to help me, stand by my side... Its not good for man to be alone... And yes, i guess the call is for Wens...

No matter how much i dislike eachother suaning and stuff, We somehow, no choice always, end up being together... maybe thats God purpose for us, to learn to live with each other, instead of competition, suaning, and despising, why not we compliment, encourage and support?

It always have been a great enigma for me tthat why i always end up doing stuff with him... truly i tell you, i disliked his company... But maybe its time for us to learn to do things together, to cover each other's short comings... to learn to trust each other and leran to be more like XUAN... When he is thirsty and lazy go to the well, i go fetch the water for him, when he is having trouble fighting the lazy monster, i fight with him, when we see each others' shortcomings, lets defeat each others monster.. and its hard, to always but up a strong front, and having some ego competieon, lets kill our ego and humble ourselves to the mud...

That is the purpose GOd is calling me to do, first, to grow godly with each other, next for a grand mission that He will later send us to...

I'm sorry Wens, for all the things i have done in the past... And i dont want to put up a strong front in front of u anymore, i dun want to act, i want to trust you, and if u are truly my brother, please help me to do so. Yes, there may be slips and falls, but could we pick each other up and grow Godly together? Cause i think i heard God's calling and he have a Great purpose for us, and we have to do it together.. And this is our preparation stage...

I'm willing to change, are you?