Why do we love?

Back from Hell Camp..

Its field camp

field camp = march 8 km, with a heavy back pack, vest and rifile, build basha on this uneven ground with dead leafs, not enough water to drink, no clean water, sleepless nights, dig a mud trench, sleep in that grave-like trench, wake up every 2 hours for guard duty for 1 hour, prone till ur back ache, run 3 k every morning

and worst is that, it rained... so my trench is super muddy..

I prayed in tekong, and some how, i feel that, Tekong have Bad reception to GOd.
cause he didnt answer my prayers there..

but he did answer one thing.. i didnt have guard duty..

in the army, its like they force you to sin

situation:
I did something worng with other 5 frens: total 6 pple
rule: if 6 other pple commit an offence worst then you will be substitued.
3 got subbed.. im the last guy cause i didnt clear jacob's ladder
so the last 3, kept hoping some one do something wrong...

SEEE: HOPING SOME ONE TO DO SOMETHING WORNG.. its bad right? its wrong...
but we got subbed anyway.. got one guy didnt cause he commited another mistake..

and thus no guard for me..

gotta set my mind into the right directon this sunday before boook in.. need some help in church

believe that army will be a bit more fun if wens is ard with me...

he'll love the trench thing..
good gracious for his field camp

p.s : my hand is rotting now,, there is wierd rash growing on my hand.. they say its normal?!