Why do we love?

Life after 9 april 2007 feels................. defiled.

everywhere i turn and look, it seems like everything is somewhat wrong.
and they are all invading into me, turning me into one of THEM.

even i do have occasional slips and stumbles sometimes.

Vulgarities everywhere.
Sex seems to the only pleasure there.
Encouraging us to be Self centred
Rage is highly recommended.
Encourage us to pursue for worldly treasures.
Universal Love seems to be an insipid thing.

And some how, the reception in Tekong is not so good.
My messages i prayed doesnt seems to reach God's ears.

and i couldnt hear his voice anymore.

even after i book out.

Tried to go back to Chruch to perhaps find His presence there, and yet, i still feel that emptiness in me.

In short, i'm in deep trouble.
No, no,
i mean,
i felt dead.

living a life without meaning or purpose.

Even u find ways and means to jot yourself up to feel some excitement in life. Like playing games and going out and watch some movies.

It still feels empty, my heart still keeps still..

Lord, Lord, why have u forsaken me?

HOpe i could be filled up again,
Hope some one out there could help me.

Oh yeah, and pray for Wens and CK, for they are going through hell camp, i meant field camp this week... wonder why funny things they have grow on their body..

Pls make me alive back.