Why do we love?

Today I started of the day by telling myself: Hey, I need to get things right back with God, although I woke up late I managed to squeexe some time for God in prayer..

and I prayed according to the Lord's prayer i learnt in cell yesterdAY.

THen after i went to physics tutorial and lecture, i came back feeling super duper low. and then suddenly God went out of my life again.

I became like peter, worried that i'll sink..
I couldnt understand anything i study. or couldnt even remember. Trm is my jap listening test, and I dun even fully remember all the vocabs and stuff..

Thing is i have put in effort. I did study.. but I have to agree.. not effectively tho.

almost at the verge of breaking down then suddenly heard the song by chris tomlin, was wearing my earphones to study to block out the noise.

The song was unfailing love.

You have my heart
And I am Yours forever
You are my strength
God of grace and power

And everything You hold in Your hand
Still You make time for me
I can't understand
Praise You God of Earth and sky
How beautiful is Your unfailing love
Unfailing love

And You never change God You remain
The Holy One
My unfailing love
Unfailing love

You are my rock
The one I hold on to
You are my song
And I sing for You

And everything You hold in Your hand
Still You make time for me
I can't understand
Praise You God of Earth and sky
How beautiful is Your unfailing love
Unfailing love

And You never change God You remain
The Holy One
My Unfailing love
Unfailing love

And everything You hold in Your hand
Still you make time for me
I can't understand
Praise You God of Earth and sky
How beautiful is Your unfailing love
Unfailing love

And You never change God You remain
The Holy One
My Unfailing love
Unfailing love

I will praise You
Praise you God of earth and sky
How beautiful is your unfailing love
Unfailing love

And You never change God You remain
The Holy One
My Unfailing love

Unfailing love
Unfailing love
Unfailing love
Unfailing love
Unfailing love

Super beautiful song..

I dun understand why am i going thru this, and I know i feel screwed up most probably is because something I have done, but some how as the verse of the song says everything is in His Hand and HE make time for me.

I just nearly teared.

I shoved Him away, but He just wanted me to be back. I ignored Him, yet He is right here with me right now when I needed Him the most.

His unfailing love.

I going to pray for His grace and mercy for my exams. and hopefully I can do my best. remember His love.